Sunday, May 24, 2009
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I may have mentioned that I need to lose some weight. Somewhere around 50kg to be precise.
Once upon a time I used to be 60kg. On my 5'6" body, that was skinny, bordering on too skinny (I have a stocky frame). I was so skinny that my poor dad had sought advice from an eating disorder clinic. Really it was just that I was burning the candle at both ends. I was studying Year 12, working 30 hours a week, partying, and being a typical 18 year old, and just didnt have time to eat.
A year later I was diagnosed with Endo, and I took it hard. Over the next 6 years the weight piled on. Til I got to where I am now. I have tried every diet under the sun, and have had no luck. It has got to the stage where it has affected my fertility, which to me isnt fair on my husband. I should point out that I eat reasonably healthy, i love veggies, i exercise a bit, and try will all of my might to avoid sugar (some days I fail at this), but nothing seems to budge the weight. Which is incredibly disheartening. So I went to my doctor to see about some options.
Eventually, after a lot of consideration, I decided on Lapbanding. I don't expect it to be easy, and don't see it as an easy way out. I know people who have had it done, and it most definatly isnt easy. If you think it is, I say 'walk a mile'. I disgress though
But, in order to stay focused on the big picture, I need a goal. So i suggested to husband that when i am skinny enough to be comfortable in a bikini, that we go to the Maldives. He agreed (I then fell over in shock). In his words "if i get to see you happy, on a beach, in a bikini, drinking cocktails, then its worth it". He even still agreed when i pointed out it wouldnt be cheap.
So that is my focus point (you know, besides being healthy, possibly riding myself of fertility problems, and living longer). Off to research an island which i have no idea where it is. But have any of my readers been there? Or know anything about it. Pin It